Life Sucks... sometimes relationships too

yeah, never knew women or at least some f them sucks. Only learned about it a couple of days ago.

Thanks for one of my buddy who spent some time with me last week and bought me lunch every day, thanks!

Thanks for listening, thanks for the thoughts. 3 hours of makan and sharing life experiences.

Thanks to that someone who called me for hours yesterday.

Thanks to Is who understands my situation.

Today is seriously not a good day for me.

I was in pain this evening, whilst listening to some songs from my hp, at the balcony of my new resident location, smoking my life away.

Yes, I was in pain over my thyroid and those songs made me worse, literally. My mind faltered to *A***A* A**, to the happier times we shared, the moments when we’re together, on my bed, with her in my arms….. the sad times when she flared at me, when she ignored me, when she slapped me, hard…..

A lot of my friends are telling me to forget about her, when they learnt about her from me, what she have said to me, what she had done to me, how she treated me.

Yeah, she can’t give and take, she’ll just take and seldom give back.

I always have to do what she wants to do, had to go on with the so – called relationship her way, all they way.

Yes, friends kept on reminding me about her negative side.

But I still miss her, so much.

I miss running my fingers thru her hair [ it's longer the last time she slept with me! ].

I miss waking her up with my kisses.

I miss looking at her cutey – morning face, saying ” Good morning …” to me followed by a kiss to my lips.

I miss kissing her pinkish – red luscious lips.

I know, I know….. Gotta stop moping around, gotta pick up the pieces, gotta move on.

Thanks Is, thanks Maya, thanks Jon, thanks Puan Emmilda, thanks Natalie.

I hope and pray to God that all of you will find the one, and be eternally in love, happy and contented with the one who loves you all.