I don’t know what I was thinking, apparently I wasn’t thinking. I took a story (a very personal matter) and purposely sent it to someone I wrote about hoping she will understand the big picture, Stupid.
STUPID.
STUPID.
STUPID.
I’ve since apologized and and tried to explain the whole thing. Still, I can’t take back what I did. Believe me, I sooo wish I could! I fucked up. I feel smaller than a midget, worse than an asshole, and dumber than a rock. I don’t know what my problem is, but I deserve the ending result.
I won’t say more than that because I’ve already shared entirely too much with this virtual world. So I’m going to shut up. But before I do, let me just re-emphasize one last thing...
I’m so, sooo sorry for what I’ve done! My intention was never to purposely hurt you, embarrass you, or let you down. I don’t expect forgiveness. I just ask that you doesn’t judge me based solely on this one act, on my sheer stupidity. I messed up. I was wrong. Now I have to live with it.
