Forgive and Forget

First of all, before I even begin writing this blog, I would like to make one thing clear - I am a terrible person at times, and I know I have made a lot of people upset and hurt throughout the course of my life. I know my weaknesses, and sometimes I can control them, but sometimes I can't.

And most of the time when I can't control my weaknesses, I tend to hurt people. But when I finally realised that I've been overcome by my weaknesses, most of the time, it would be too late, because the person on the receiving end of my anger, would be hurt and it would take a miracle for them to forgive me.

In any case, I know my mistakes and most of the time I would try to avoid making the same mistakes over and over again.
Sometimes my conscience tells me that I should be doing this or that, but sometimes my conscience decides to go on vacation and leave me to make blunders in my life.


Oh Boy. Please don't get me wrong. I do admit that I've hurt people, and I'm seriously not proud of any of my "achievements", but you got to understand one thing about me.

I am a nut case and i explode and say the stupidest thing sometimes, but deep down inside me... I'm actually an "ok" guy. And almost always (99%) of the time, I would regret the things I have done and wished I could take them back


But someone close to me once said "Dude, by the time you realise, it's a little too late, cause the person's already being hurt by you".


Yeah, my friend is right you know? I've lived with the regret of many hurts that I've caused.


But here's the thing about me :


I can give as much as I can take.


If someone hurt me like hell. Broke my heart. Ate my balls. Whatever, you name it..... I'd be very very angry and probably not speak to the person anymore for the rest of my life.


But, you know what? If the person came up to me or wrote me a letter or send me a text message or whatever, and told me he/she was sorry and regretted what he/she had done.... I would forgive that person in a flash.


Seriously. That's the person that I am.


Somebody (another friend) once told me "You ah... Outside only ganas and fierce... but once people say sorry to you... you become soft".


I would reply "NO LAH.... BLOODY HELL... I'M SERIOUS. I WON'T TALK TO THAT PERSON ANYMORE". But guess what, the moment I get a call or message from that other party, my heart would soften almost immediately.


I don't know why.


You know, I believe in forgiveness, because if you don't forgive, how can you ever expect God to forgive you right?


So, with forgiveness, comes a healing process, which kinda means you will "forget" whatever wrong the other person has done towards you, and you will start fresh, and not judge the other person according to what he had done to you in the past.


And that's where the phrase "Forgive and Forget" came from.


But I was pretty put off by a person, whom I have apologised to. Because she told me that she has "forgiven" me for what I have done/said about her and her family, but she "will never forget" my faults.


Geez. Go see a priest and ask them what "forgiveness" actually means. If you claim to be a Forgiver too, and go around telling people that you "forgive" a person but "will never forget", then might as well no need to forgive.

If this is how forgiveness is supposed to be, then I guess the Lord's Prayer will sound something like this


My Lord in Heaven,

Holy Be Your Name,

Your Kingdom Come,Your Will Be Done,

On Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give Us this day, our Daily Bread,

And FORGIVE US OUR SINS,

AS WE TRY TO FORGIVE THOSE WHO SINNED AGAINST US,

BUT WE WILL NEVER FORGET THEIR SINS,

Do not bring us to the test,

But Deliver Us From Evil,


Amen.

I guess this must be the prayer she must be saying everynight then, huh?

It's holidays season, and its the day that the Master of forgivness was born, I beg you all around the world to forgive those who are really love or in love with you.

MERRY CHRISTMAS