It is really the full moon?!!!

Good morning folks.

Its 03:25 and again I woke up at 02:15 after sleeping for exactly 2hrs and half.

I’ve been going to bed later and later every night now. I cannot fathom why. I think that for some reason I am afraid of going to sleep.

But afraid of what?

That I might wake up alone, or not at all?

That in my sleep I will be confronted with dreams of my past, with dreams I would rather not face?

Am I scared of what I cannot see?

Is that why I must force myself to go to sleep?

It isn’t good for me, this going to bed at six o’clock in the morning, or not feeling like going at all, only to get up at 7 am. Last night I did not go to bed until 6:30 am, and thank god it was already weekend, and I could get late for my extra shift... but yet I woke up on nightmare around 08:30 and went to my office.

Things like that put a dent in my day. I wasn’t able to make myself lunch, or eat breakfast, or wash my face. But all the various girls at work that regularly devote their time to flirting with me didn’t seem to notice all that much. (funny lah?... of course non of them do that but I am trying to flater myself a little) Funny the way girls’ minds work.

I know I should go to bed now. I really know that I must, my eyes are stinging.

I need to do something about what bothers me that much. I haven’t really been noticing,but now after thinking hard, I am sure its the full moon :)

I’m glad my assistant and my team aren’t doing that. Well, except for my boss. cause yesterday I have noticed that she either sleeps late or wakes up very early. both options are avilable but personaly I would go with the second one since she's always fresh at the morning and well taken care of herself.

I will have to figure a way out to use this night time, so I will try now to get my work paper done, hoping that will do well.

Hm. Well, I suppose I should actually go to bed after doing this work documents. No more rambling for me tonight. Hmmm!!!

Hoping that nightmares won't hunt me down tonight...